emotions

So I have less than two weeks here in this lovely country and I am not sure what to think. Of course I am excited to go home and see my family, but this has been my life for 5 years. Thats a long time! And the uncertainty of the future makes things so much harder.

In the past couple days I have found that I get stressed out easily and cry even easier. The littlest thing sets me off either yelling and screaming at someone (often just inside my head and thankfully not out-loud) or crying. Its a really bad combination. I am trying to be strong and make the most of these last couple days I have here. I am working on trusting God completely, but its hard. I know He will provide all I need - financially, emotionally, physically - but its still hard.

And to top it all off my internet is not working. Thankfully I know about the old fashion dial-up through the phone line. But its awfully slow. I hope to post some pictures from last week at camp once my fast internet is back.

What a summer. A few months ago when I was planning when I would go back to the states I thought, I will take it easy this summer and just enjoy being here during my last couple months. Well, its been anything but that. I now have three weeks left and it seems maybe my last 10 days will be relaxing…and also packing up 5 years worth of stuff and deciding what to put into my 4 bags.

Tomorrow I am off to the mountains for 5 days... not to relax, but for a leadership program for University students. There are 10 of us as staff from the states, and about 25 Albanian students. It should be a great time. I am teaching on Tuesday and have the topic of Communicating in Love. I am excited to see how the students react to the activities and learn through them. Hopefully I will post about this when I return from the mountain. For now I ask you all to lift up this camp, that Truth would stand out and be heard, and that He would be glorified in everything that we do.

I always find it hard readjusting back from vacation. We drove back through the night, then slept all morning. I woke up around 12:30, relaxed a bit with the family I went with, then headed home to my flat. Since I have been here I have been overwhelmed with the work I need to get done, and can't seem to put much order to it to figure out where to start....so I decided to ignore work and look at my pictures. But we took about 1400 pictures during the one week on the beach, so I got tired of the pictures quickly and thought to post a couple here.

Finally on the last night we went and watched the sun set. It was beautiful!

vacation!

I am really excited, I am going on vacation tonight. I have been really stressed trying to get everything together so things will function without me here....which of course they will! But I am hoping I don't stress over the little things I might have forgotten about. So time to go finish cleaning up a bit and I am off.

Hope you all have a great week!