Some ramblings from my life . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . in His service
Saturday, December 27
It's just strange to me that a country would change the name of a street to be that of another country's president. Do we have streets named after people in America?
Sunday, December 14
ice storm
Ok, I will see if I can upload a few pictures. Click on this link to see some pictures. Sorry they are still in raw format and aren't even straightened out yet. That will wait until I have decent internet speed and some power for my computer.
Saturday, December 6
Friday, December 5
exhaustion
I had another story to tell, but I forget it now...too distracted by TV.
My final comment - I love that my grandfather always compliments my cooking.
Sure sign that I am too tired - I have cried twice tonight because of TV. Thats just not right. I need sleep! Goodnight.
Saturday, November 22
Since my last post I was hired as an ESL teacher for an Elementary school near where I live. Its inner city and a very poor area. The kids I have mostly speak Spanish. Some have just come to the States in the last year. Most have been here for awhile, but have only learned English since starting school. Its a very overwhelming job, especially since its my first time working in an elementary school. The kids are all so needy, and I have a few that are pretty much behavior problems all the time. A second grader getting suspended from school isn't a good start to your school career.
I am also taking two grad school classes for my Master's in ESL. I am enjoying these classes, but now that the papers are due, I am stressing out a bit. (Just a bit for now as I still have a week to procrastinate some more.)
Thats a quick summary of why I have fallen off the face of the earth. Now I am off to see my wonderful nephew and maybe try to work on my paper when he sleeps tonight.
Monday, October 13
Sunday, October 5
More about this weekend later. I should go to sleep now as I have to wake up early for church.
Friday, October 3
Right now I am sitting on a plane flying over Virginia maybe, soon to land in Nahsville. As I look out the window at the land below, I am reminded that I am no longer in Europe, and this sadens me. I reflect back on my travels in Europe, the excitement of landing back in Prishtina after being away, and the joy of seeing my students and friends each day. I still have not fully come to terms with living in the US again. I know its where I should be. I know I will be happy here. I know this all will take time. I know I will soon have the same joy when I go to teach my new students I have yet to meet. (Well maybe not quite the same, as these with be elementary students, but I am sure I will also find joy in this new job.)
I am excited to be going to Nashville to see my friends there, but it saddens me to be on a plane, and not be heading overseas. ... and to not know when I will be back on a plane going east over the atlantic.
I still have moments where I forget that I am in America, especially when in places like airports. Today both times I got on the plane I had to think in order to make English come out when asking the person in the aisle seat if the window seat was free (lovely southwest choose your own seat thing) and then was surprised when the answer was returned to me in English. I saw some people in army uniforms in the airport and did a double take when i saw the American flag, and was about to talk to them, but remembered all the soldiers here are American. I have no need to talk to them in order to try to get on the American base (which I never did manage in Kosovo.)
I guess it will take me a long time to get used to the life here. I lived in Kosovo for five years, and adapted into the culture and lifestyle there as if it were my own. Now I am trying to figure out what the culture is here again.
On a random sidenote about transitioning, I find it very amusing that people I meet here for the first time think I am from the south. Even during my interview on Monday they mentioned my southern accent. I am sure no one in the south would ever say I have a southern accent, instead they make fun of how I pronounce the word “house” and “aunt” with a northern accent. Its fun to know that I pick up a little accent everywhere I go, and keep it with me. Sometimes a British accent will pop out due to living and working with some people from England, and I have added many British words into my vocabulary because they are more common in Europe. My strange accents and foreign words (for example I tend to say “flat” instead of “apartment”) are a little sign to others, showing how each place I have lived has impacted me and remains in me. Its exciting to think about what the future holds and how my crazy language output will change even more. (Its also fun that some of the words I know from Kosova are actually Turkish and maybe even Arabic. I am listening to a book that takes place in Afganistan, and they talk about eating on a “sofra” which I know is a table that is low to the ground and have eaten at many times myself.)
Tuesday, September 30
Wednesday, September 24
Friday, September 19
done
Tuesday, September 16
puppy
my grandpa
Tuesday, September 9
Now I just need to figure out how to be more focused and not fall asleep when I open a book.
On a side and happier note, I found a small lake about a half a mile away from my new abode and enjoyed running the trail around it this morning.
I have my second class tomorrow night - language syntax - don't think it will be as much fun as my first class.
Wednesday, September 3
grad school starts today
A bit earlier there was a family sitting next to me and they were speaking another language. I kept listening trying to figure out what they were speaking....always hopeful to find a fellow albanian speaker. Then my phone rang and my friend from Kosova was calling me. I preceded to speak Albanian on the phone....not even thinking about it. After I hung up, the people next to me asked what language I was speaking. Gosh, why didn't I just ask them first. I found out they were speaking Hebrew, which would have been my guess due to the throat sounds. They told me they were trying to figure out what language I was speaking, as they know many different languages. I explained that Albanian is like none other, and began sharing a bit about my previous five years.
Speaking of the Albanian language, I went out on my mom's boat on Monday, and while cruising through a pretty area I saw a boat named "Kismet." I thought, hmmm, thats albanian for "fate." The first time past the boat I didn't say anything, but the second time past it I asked what the name of their boat meant. I found out its not only Albanian, but also Turkish, with the same meaning.
Well I have my first class as a grad student in an hour. I am not sure if I am ready to be a student again. But I am surely ready to be doing something and meet some people. Wish me luck!
Friday, August 29
wow
Tomorrow I have an interview. I am kind of excited and a little nervous. I am not too nervous as its not my number one job choice. But would be nice to get a job. This interview is to work with an organization that does refugee and immigration services. I applied to be an ESL teacher there. I think it would be adult classes, but I am not sure. More info tomorrow! Maybe I will find some Albanians.
Friday, August 22
america
I am still confused when I walk into a store and the people all speak English.
The other day I went to a mall food court by myself, and I chose to sit next to a middle eastern family. Then another non-english speaking family sat on the other side of me. I was happy. No albanian speakers, but just hearing other languages was good.
I did find an Albanian at the airport when I arrived. That was a nice surprise and gave me something to do while waiting for my bags. The guy worked at the airport and I think I really surprised him when I started speaking Albanian to him. Once I am more settled I will start searching for some Albanians near where I will be living.
So I am finally back in the states and trying to figure out life here. Its a bit complicated. I am looking for a job and its not as easy as I had hoped. At the same time I am looking for a car, but again thats hard without a job. I did buy a phone and a computer on the first day and I have been very happy with them. (Ok, i did exchange my phone, i was used to a really simple phone in Europe, but decided since I have the possibility to do so much more on my phone now, why not get a phone that can do stuff. I think I am happy with my choice now.)
While I wait for a job and a car I have been enjoying time with the most wonderful nephew in the world. I can't believe how big Owen is and I have loved every minute I have spent with him so far. He is so cute, makes so many funny faces, and has such a great personality. Click here below to see more pictures of him from my first couple days here.
Sunday, August 3
one week
Its hard to pack up 5 years of your life in 4 suitcases. I am not even sure where to start. I have been making piles and going through different sections of my apartment slowly for the past couple weeks, but now I really have to get to it. The funny thing is that the airline told me on Friday that I can actually only take two bags. I just laughed. No thats not really funny, I hope its not true. I am bringing 4 bags to the airport and testing my luck. But I have come to realize its just stuff. I will try to pack my favorite clothes in one bag and gifts and stuff I want from here in another. The other two bags will be stuff that would be nice to have right away, but not necessarily priority. Having bags left here would be a nice excuse for me to come back and visit soon.
I had a goodbye party last week, but a lot of students are on vacation or in their villages and couldn't come. All that came to the party I hope to see again this week. But today I have started saying goodbye. I would like to tell people I will see them again this week, but I know I am going to get busy and I need to just say bye, or better to say "see you later." I know I will be back here, I just don't know when or under what circumstances.
Yesterday I finished up some cover letters and printed up a few copies of my resume and sent them all off. I am trusting that they will all get to where they need to go. I have applied to teach English as a Second Language in three different public schools near my grandfather's house. One is in the same town my mom went to school. I am hoping that I will get one of these jobs, and that way I will have the whole summer off (i.e. a chance to come back here.)
Friday, August 1
Leadership Program
And you can watch a fun video from it too. (Thanks Kaylee!)
Tuesday, July 29
emotions
In the past couple days I have found that I get stressed out easily and cry even easier. The littlest thing sets me off either yelling and screaming at someone (often just inside my head and thankfully not out-loud) or crying. Its a really bad combination. I am trying to be strong and make the most of these last couple days I have here. I am working on trusting God completely, but its hard. I know He will provide all I need - financially, emotionally, physically - but its still hard.
And to top it all off my internet is not working. Thankfully I know about the old fashion dial-up through the phone line. But its awfully slow. I hope to post some pictures from last week at camp once my fast internet is back.
Sunday, July 20
What a summer. A few months ago when I was planning when I would go back to the states I thought, I will take it easy this summer and just enjoy being here during my last couple months. Well, its been anything but that. I now have three weeks left and it seems maybe my last 10 days will be relaxing…and also packing up 5 years worth of stuff and deciding what to put into my 4 bags.
Sunday, July 13
Finally on the last night we went and watched the sun set. It was beautiful!
Saturday, July 5
vacation!
Hope you all have a great week!
Thursday, June 26
no power
Now that its summer and getting warm, the power is going out fairly often. I think its very funny when I am working away on my computer and get mad that the internet doesn’t work or the printer doesn’t start. Then I look around and see the power has gone off. Sometimes it has been off for 30 minutes before I realize it. I am thankful that I have a laptop with a good battery and I don’t loose my work every time the power goes off.
(a few hours later)
The pedicure went well, but took two hours. My feet are all nice and smooth now.Wednesday, June 25
too cute
Monday, June 23
online wedding
So the connection has been pretty bad and I have only been able to watch bits and pieces, but I still think its pretty cool that I am watching two of my friends get married in Oklahoma right now. I believe there is a camera hooked up to the bottom of one of the chairs at the wedding and that is transmitting a signal through skype to someone's computer in another city. I then am viewing the wedding via msn video call, though a computer that is aimed at the projected screen of the skype broadcasted wedding. Yes, its complicated, but it has worked. I wasn't able to see the whole wedding, but saw the bride and the groom and felt like I joined in their celebration from afar. It was hard not to be able to be there with them for their wedding, but this has helped ease the sadness of missing this day in their lives.
I remember when Rachael and I were here together, working as two single women in a male dominated society. We prayed for a guy to come and help us in our work here. This guy named Wes answered our prayers and was preparing to come to this side of the pond. He quickly got the nickname of FarmBoy, and accepted it with such pride and humbleness at the same time, always going above and beyond what our expectations were of his job duties. I can't say I ever would have expected the two of them to get married when Wes first came...and can be sure that they both didn't expect it then and even denied the possibility for a really long time. But I am so glad that God grew them together and shaped them into who they are today. I am blessed to have been a part of their lives. I can't wait to see what God has in store for them in the future, now as a couple.
Wednesday, June 18
cutest baby contest
Sometimes I think I am biased and just because he is my nephew I think he is the cutest baby...but many people have told me he really is very cute! So Lisa (his mom) has entered him into a contest. Please click on either of the pictures and vote for him to win and be on the cover of Parents magazine. Thanks!
Monday, June 16
village fun
a drive in the countryside
Yesterday
Monday, June 9
cast away
Saturday, June 7
storms
The rain is good and the weather has stayed nice and cool so far. The only problem is that the other day I got really wet because I didn't have an umbrella with me. I am learning to take it with me, even if the day starts out sunny.
Sunday, June 1
summer
1. I get sweaty walking or doing anything, and its only going to get hotter!
2. My summer team has arrived and will start their activities this week.
3. We had a cookout in our yard with the different families living here.
4. I am no longer the only one wearing sandals.
5. Fruit is in abundance and tastes so good!!
6. I just want to be outside all the time and am having trouble actually getting work done.
7. I have eaten ice-cream every day this past week.
8. I cleaned my balcony and can sit outside with my computer and enjoy the evening breeze.
9. Everything is green and the fields of wildflowers are beautiful.
10. High school students finished school for the summer.
So thats a quick summary of whats going on here. I am home tonight, don't have any guests, and its actually cool, so I should get some work done now while I can.
Sunday, May 18
free at last
Here is a video made by an American who has lived here since 1999. A short documentary type movie on the recent events here. Okay, its not too short, as its 12 minutes, but a good explanation of the recent events here. Enjoy!
Wednesday, May 14
the golden years
Often in the middle of class I have even said to the students, “I didn’t see the conversation going this way, but its great.” Amazingly I have left each class surprised at how well the lesson went, shocked by how much the students talked and what I learned through their conversations.
One week my lesson topic was “The Golden Years.” I planned to talk about retirement and the pros and cons of forcing one to retire. The title, The Golden Years, wasn’t actually planned into my typed up lesson in any way. It was just the title of the lesson. Then as I started class I had a creative idea, I wrote “The Golden Years” on the board and started asking the students what they thought this meant.
In each class (I teach four classes of the same lesson) the students pretty much agreed that their “golden years” have already past and were when they were 17/18 years old. They think you are old when you reach about 50. One student is saving money for the future. No one thinks of what they will do or how they will survive when they are older. One group said the average age to die here is 57. Most said there is no point in working after you are 65. Some argued that experience isn’t that important in most jobs and that new technology has replaced the need for experience.
All of these comments surprised me, and even after I challenged what they said and played devil’s advocate in each situation, they usually didn’t change their ideas. I understand that these students have not lived in a stable society and do not know what the future holds. They don’t know what it will be like when they are older or if they will even find a job to start with. Why think about tomorrow when today has so many problems of its own? That’s the general consensus for the younger generation here. Yes, they plan for the near future, finishing school, getting a higher degree, finding a good job, starting a family, but that’s pretty much where it ends. Of course there are many exceptions to this generalization I have made, but this is the average from what I have gathered from my students.
I have thoroughly enjoyed these conversations I have been having with my students lately. After being here for nearly 5 years, I am still learning more about them each day.
I could go on about this topic and what I have learned from these students, but this is all I have time for today. I will leave you all that option to think about this further and what implications this has on our work here. I hope to write more about some of the other lessons soon.
Monday, May 12
Vendi Im - English subtitles
Here is a video I posted a couple months ago, but since it was in English, no one knew what they were talking about. Here is another video of the same song, with English subtitles. (Gotta love YouTube!)
Hope you all enjoy!
Monday, May 5
owen
Sunday, April 27
vinegar
Wednesday, April 16
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
- Robert Frost
I came across this old, familiar poem today, and I liked it.
I think it sums up my life, and how I am feeling, very well right now.
Monday, April 14
A day in the fields
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